Why is it that something so simple as a long hot soak in radox whilst reading a good book can be all it takes to recharge and just feel so much better? It does for me anyway!
TBH Things have been getting me down a bit recently - no not depression, Im not depressed, just a little down there is a VERY VERY big difference. Maybe it's just the time of year, maybe it's too many memories which may be good ones and may be sad ones which are all just creeping up on me, maybe it's the annual "oh shit" as it comes towards looking at financing Christmas and H's birthday on Christmas Eve.. who knows? Maybe it's because I always thought that I would have a fabulous and sparkling career and I haven't.
I love what I do, I love being a Mum, I love DWD, it's my baby and I am proud of what we do. Would just be nice to get paid for it. I have been told that I am totally unlikely to ever get another teaching job with my best friend stick at my side, which although I could fight under the DDA I see their point, I really really do. Especially in this economic climate. I would love to be a writer, but I have emailed off my rough manuscript and heard nothing back (not surprising) but I can't afford to self publish atm. I have thought about doing it as an ebook, but again I still need someone who knows what they are talking about to look at the damn thing! So it's kind of strange to be 32 and need to think of a new direction... Still pondering. Although everything that I know I could do doesn't seem to be an option as I either need retraining (cost) or the hours don't suit having 3 sproglets who need dropping to and picking up from school. I am sure "something" will come up, but who knows what and when? Doesn't really help that the good old arthritis is a bit more than shit atm, but that's just how it is and no point moaning about it as I can't change it - just swallow a few more painkillers..
Anyway back to being a Mum for the time being!
1 comments:
Radox makes everything better! What's your manuscript about, and where did you send it? When I sent Casanova to Hesperus they took about seven months to get back to me, so don't get too downhearted at the delay - there's an element of 'no news is good news', Casanova apparently took them so long because it went right up to board level before they decided to reject it.
I'd always suggest self-publishing as a last resort only (I put my MPhil thesis up on Lulu and sold a massive eight copies - five of which were to me), but I have a few useful contacts depending on what kind of book you're interested in publishing.
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